It feels like every of my journal entries are about how little I am on the Internet and how much I apologise... And it doesn't just feels like it, it's true XD
Sorry guys (and lasses), since this Summer, I needed a lot of time for myself to put things back into perspective.
I have finished my project for a children's book and need now to send it all to editors. As I'm very shy and fear much rejection, it just blocks me. I know I WILL have reject letters, and am prepared to it. But I fear even most judgement. It's kind of weird.
So, instead of just pulling my socks up and get doing it, I fell in a "Fallout-New Vegas" trap. It's been a whole month, now.
I've been doing a few figurines of Vault Boy (need to post them at one point), a few aquarelles, too, but basically, I have been doing nothing else than playing on the computer (and usual living), and avoiding all social networks.
Typical me : when in fear, I just become a bear and refuge myself in something where I can't be talked to. Even my family and friends haven't heard me much since August !
Well, I'll have to snap out of this, get in gear, and start working on the book project, putting it into place and bloody sending it !
In the meantime, art block as it is : finishing the book just left me numb. I feel empty, with nothing to give, no new project to get euphorical about. It's the first time I finnish a project and I'm awkward to go through the next step.
It WILL change, and I WILL get back to things, I just need my own time alone to get there : as I hate being alone after a while, I get bored of my virtual reality and, filled up with plenty of new pictures in my head, start creating again.
That's how I work.
Too, I ordered Father Christmas a To-Be-Assembled Dollhouse Kit. I'm starting to get excited about it and I can't wait for Christmas. I'm already wondering what size and shape it will be, what style, how will I manage to decorate it from A to Z... I have a lot of material to work with, in order to shape everything (just missing the carpets but i'm sure i will find something in due time) and I just know that I will inondate DA with pictures of it through the process.
So, that means I won't be around for a little while, still. I'm intending to finnish Fallout New-Vegas and then play Fallout 1 and 2. If you don't know anything about it, just know that each game is around 200 hours of gameplay. For the least.
Then I'll be in the Christmas rush, then end of year seasonnal rejoices...
Then I'll be able to settle down again in sweet soft Winter, for more artsy stuff.
Hope you are all ok, artsy, and generally feeling good.
Hugs to all of you ! (Virtual ones, as everybody knows by now I hate being physically touched by anybody...)